
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Damper on things

Good and bad
Dog gone
Dog climbs fence.Dog runs off.Dog is crazy.Dog bites neighbor.Cops come see me.Dog catcher come see me.Dog catcher takes dog .Dog in dog poky for 10 days.Dog catcher writes me a $100 citation.I go to court November 2nd.I pay fine.I not like poky.Dog gone
Earthquakes,floods and bean burritos

Someone said something today that got me thinking.Sweets before bed time gave them nightmares.That jogged my memory back to a few years ago.Back in the early 1990's I was living alone and really cooking wasn't my favorite thing to do.Not so much not liking to cook but the clean up that followed.When I used a dish,pot or bowl soon as I was finished it was washed.So being a single person a lot of frozen quick meals where always in the freezer.Many nights before bed I popped a couple of bean burritos in the oven for my midnight snack.I always noticed one thing.When ever I had bean burritos for that last meal I would dream,not just blah blah dreams but mine were vivid kaleidoscopes of things going on.Often I would dream of earthquakes and floods.The ground would open up and I could see it swallow up people,buildings etc.Same thing with floods,tidal waves.I figured out I wasn't being prophetic,it was just those bean burritos not agreeing with me.
Someone special

Wednesday, May 23, 2012
All things considered

I can't sleep so I will write.My brain is in high gear tonight running at warp speed.There are times I just have the need to put something into words.Nothing in particular is bothering me so that's not the problem.All sorts of things are being thought about.A little sadness has crept into the picture and it's not me that's the focus of it.The feeling of fear and anxiety someone else is going through is on my mind tonight.I don't know them well at all just a speaking acquaintance but what they are going through must be terrifying.All things considered I am lucky.Why things have to be this way is not understood at times.Truly I believe God is in control and everything is His will.A purpose for everything even if it's not understood or the results are not what we want.I don't question God's reasoning He is in charge.I read in the Bible that one day everything will be understood.
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Things that just don't sound right
Chattahoochee

The Chattahoochee river.I remember seeing the river so low that you could walk across it on the rocks.I've seen it over run it's banks and flood West Point ,Georgia back in the 1960's.The river runs about 430 miles and you can float on it from Columbus ,Ga to the Gulf of Mexico.The name Chattahoochee is an Indian name meaning flowering rocks.The Indians also cursed the river saying it would take many a man's life.My Uncle Arnold had a cabin on the river and as a little boy Daddy,Arnold and me spent the night there once.It was a one room rustic cabin built high up on rocks because it was only a few feet from the river bank.I was introduced to that delicacy called fried frog legs that night.Watching them dance around the frying pan I choose to have a hot dog instead.Back in the 1970's the river was dammed up here creating Lake West Point.It was for flood control.The Army Corps of Engineers over see the dam.You can still drive up Highway 27 to Franklin,Ga and still see the river run free.And yes the Indians where good at their curse on the Chattahoochee.Since the river was dammed up nearly a hundred or more people have lost their lives here on it.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Embarrassing condition

Senior moments.Sheesh I have had two episodes lately.The latest was today I forgot where my hat was and as you probably guessed it was already on my head.The other day I was listening to music on the computer and for some reason I noticed nothing was being heard.I checked the volume on the computer settings but every thing looked good.Desperate I was thinking of running a complete diagnostic check.Then crazy me noticed by chance that the reason nothing was being heard was that I had taken off my headphones.Seems I'm not alone.Telling others about this little episode of senior moments they admitted they also suffer from this embarrassing condition.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
That place,you know
Monday, May 14, 2012
Let your fingers do the walking

Everything in one box.That is what my computer is to me.A way to communicate with people with email or instant messenger,no need for newspapers printed on paper anymore they are read online.Who needs a TV.I listen to everything that's on radio with the computer these days.We are truly in the digital age.I remember back in the 1970's hearing about something called email.How could that be I wondered.Now people even date by computer,shop online,is there a need for stores anymore.I heard of a thing called video phone years ago it never caught on but today I guess that cams on computers has taken that to another level.Do your banking and pay your bills online.No need for a stamp or automobile now.Let your fingers do the walking like the old yellow page commercial use to say.The computer has changed our life style.I just hope it's for the best.
Sunday, May 13, 2012
You almost won

Congratulations you almost won.I got that letter once.A store downtown LaGrange was giving away a bike for Christmas.I registered and really forgot all about it.A letter came in the mail for me.Noticing who it was from my memory was jogged and thinking to myself this is good news.With childish excitement the letter was opened.I won a bike kept running through my mind.Well you know how it goes.The letter was informing me I almost won the bike.Still to this day often I think of that little disappointment in life.
Everything has a purpose

Rainy day here in West Central Georgia.It's ok with me kinda suits me today.Even with the dark clouds and rain the little solar powered butterfly in the window is happy and just dances up a storm.Got to be a moral to that and maybe in a minute it will come to me.Birds sitting on power lines seem to be enjoying the rain.It's not hard rain just a little more steady than a drizzle.Everything has a purpose and this rain is needed.Folks with gardens are happy with all the rain of the past few days I bet.I should be also cause I have tomatoes in the waiting from people who have gardens.White loaf bread,mayo,sliced home grown tangy tomato,salt and pepper.Tomato sandwich.So simple and hard to mess up and delicious.
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Closest thing to Gods love

It's a rainy night in Georgia.Back in bed after a long day just looking out the big window watching traffic on Highway 29.Supper was excellent.Country fried steak,scalloped potatoes,green beans,cucumber salad and apple pie with hot coffee to round it out.Tomorrow is Mothers Day 2012.Thoughts of Momma have flashed into my head off and on all day.I keep remembering when as a little boy how on Saturdays we would go shopping downtown,she would always have her hair done and afterwards we would eat at the Plantation on Bull Street or at the soda fountain at Holmes Drug Store on Main.Or the time when I was sick with some type of virus and she got down on the bathroom floor with me,holding me,crying with me as I threw up.Momma I guess was the only person I'm 100% sure of that loved me.That was something never doubted and guess taken for granted.Someone said once that a Mothers love is the closest thing to Gods love that we will ever have here on earth.So true.
My name is
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Fun on $1.25

Fun on $1.25.Every week that was my allowance or mad money as Momma called it.It was for chores I did around the house.I would take that $1.25 and go to Buy Wise Drug's in Newnan,Georgia where I lived as a kid and buy a model car,the kind that where 1/24 scale plastic that you had to put togather.AMC,Revell where the most popular brands to buy.Testors glue and paint where the only items needed for assembly.It took patience and a steady hand putting those models togather but it was such an enjoyment.If I had been smart they would have been saved.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Creepy crawler
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Strange goings on


Strange goings on on Highway 219 north between Troup and Heard Country.Looking on the internet as far back as 1938 people where noticing things out of the normal.Lights in the sky,things in the sky.I remember a story about a family's car being invaded by a strange light inside with them.The road has a stretch of land that is nothing but swamp.I have to admit it must be a spooky place at night in dead darkness.Not many homes on that road that I remember.I read that years ago maybe in the 1950's a military helicopter crashed in that neck of the woods.I personally remember back in the 1990's a military jet exploded killing the pilot while supposedly chasing some type of aircraft in the area.Least that is what witnesses said I can't prove or disapprove any of this.I know for a fact once when driving back down 219 from Heard County up in the sky I seen a silver round object moving at a fast clip. Wasn't like any plane I ever seen before.Strange thing was I watched an object just like it hovering above downtown LaGrange a few days before.So maybe nothing strange is going on but there sure are lots that hasn't been explained about Highway 219.
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Adapt
Friday, May 4, 2012
Hell on earth
Monday, April 30, 2012
Danger Will Robinson

Well we had some excitement this evening at the old home place.It was around 8pm when Wille and me had our Braves baseball game interrupted by the sound of sirens.They stopped close by Willie I said.He seen them first,firemen running into the building,and there was smoke.Fire alarms blasting and strobe lights flashing we where whisked away to a safer spot.It was the fastest wheelchair ride I ever had.Least this time I was still dressed and not like during the tornado warning and off to the hall we went waiting the all clear signal.Seems an electrical outlet in a room had caught fire being the culprit for our evening excitement and the idea for this story.All is good,everyone safe,and now I'm snug in bed writing this story.As the robot from lost in space always said danger Will Robinson danger!
A milestone
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Just shoot me
Saturday, April 28, 2012
I had to laugh
Sweet talking
Worlds top killer

Friday, April 27, 2012
I never picked cotton

Thursday, April 26, 2012
BBQ

Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Fanner 44's
Found my t shirt

Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Dark Shadows

Pretty birds

What to write about.I have no idea.I could write about the bird feeder out side the bedroom window.It is a pleasure just watching those little birds fly and flutter around the feeder.I have seen turtledoves and cardinals both male and female on the feeder.Never seen them eat the birdseed they just seem to be using the post as a resting spot during their daily travels.Small birds I think they are some type of finches use the feeder mostly.They are brown which I guess are the female and the males must be the ones with red heads and chest.Lately a small bird that is light gray with a black head has shown up.Very pretty.They all are and a relaxing way to spend spare time watching them feed.
The big 60

I was surprised and delighted this morning by a dear friend.A birthday card and balloon wishing me happy birthday on the big 60.The card was signed by the members of the Church I belong to.There is one teeny weeny small problem.Right day but a few months early.But that is no problem.I will just celebrate my big 60 birthday everyday for a couple of months.
Monday, April 23, 2012
Go fly a kite

The wind did howl yesterday here in west central Ga.Great day for kite flying if ya had one.Gust around 30mph.It has been years since I flew a kite.Kites where 10 cents at the store plus what ever a roll of string cost and tail made from scrap cloth and you had fun that would keep you busy for hours.Do kids still fly kites I wonder because it has been years since I've seen one in the sky.March was always called kite flying season.Windy days where almost always guaranteed.I wonder if kite flying is another thing that has been replaced by all the new fangled things kids have to keep them busy these days.
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Time is now
Friday, April 20, 2012
Hooked
Do you remember?
Yearn for the old days

Years ago TV was called your window on the world.Television shrunk the world and made it smaller.Before TV Momma said they where told of an invention like radio but you could see it.I am a child of the TV age.Saturday mornings as a kid I would be up bright and early before anyone else sitting on the floor in my PJ's with a bowl of cornflakes watching the Indian test pattern waiting for another day of broadcast excellence.Programs like My Friend Flicka,Sky King,Hop Along Cassidy on and on.Saturday nights at 10 pm standing in front of the TV with my cap pistol and holster on I would try my best to out draw Matt Dillion.Sunday night was the best.After a long day of Church,those great Sunday dinners and visiting kinfolks time to settle down.My favorite programs would come on.My Favorite Martian,Disney's Wonderful World of Color and Bonanza.Back in those days,late 50's things where so much simpler.One TV in the house and it was black and white.Families watched it togather instead of like now where everyone has a TV with cable and 500 channels in their own room.Now in my old age I can honestly say TV doesn't interest me much anymore.Maybe I yearn for the old days the way it was.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Gary goes fishing

Checkers chili dogs and a bag of chips
Monday, April 16, 2012
Could be worse
Long lost twins?
Home grown maters

Sunday, April 15, 2012
Nightmare
Something stupid
Friday, April 13, 2012
Sign of the times
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Pondering
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Monday, April 9, 2012
The warning

Outside yesterday I noticed a crow chasing a hawk in the sky.Maybe the crow was protecting it's young or space.The hawk for the most part just ignored the crow and went on it's merry way.The crow was determined.Another thing seen recently was a bluejay and an hawk almost having a mid air collision.The bluejay I swear turned around and gave chase.They have no fear it seems and will fight anything.Across the road there is a wooded area.Something broke the quietness of the day with several loud hoops.All I could think of was it must have been an owl.Once at the old home place on the back porch late at night with Sam and Pee Wee the cats I noticed they had become very quite and where staring at something.Then I seen it.It was an large owl sitting on the neighbors clothes line staring towards us.For a long time it just stayed not making a sound looking at me and the cats.Then with ruffling of it's wings it flew off.I never mentioned it to anyone.Reason was the next day My Dad was going into the hospital for lung surgery.I have heard that owls can be bad omens.I think maybe this one was or maybe it was there to warn me of things to come.
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Phony and hypocrite
Friday, April 6, 2012
I wish

Today is Good Friday.Time to plant your garden if you are going to have one.Daddy always planted his on this day.In my old age I wish I had payed more attention to things Daddy did like farming,mechanical things,etc.At the time it seemed so boring.He tried teaching me how to use tools but I was all thumbs not having the knack for such.My brain would always wander.I just wasn't interested.Daddy would have a problem at work with a piece of machinery and many times the answer to it would come to him and even if it was the middle of night he would get dressed and go fix it.I think the word for that is dedication.It sure was hard watching Daddy get sick and die.Always a big strong man he went down to nothing.I had a dream of him shortly after he died.I was driving,driving it seems like an endless trip,I was gave out and troubled,then the first person I seen in my dream was Daddy,standing on the side of the road leaning against his old Ford truck.He was smiling and oh so young,he looked liked he was in the prime of his life and all was good with him.I like to think maybe it was his way of telling me all was ok and to start enjoying my life and quit the mourning.
Sunday, April 1, 2012
I will try
Saturday, March 31, 2012
A good day
It has been a good day here in West Central Georgia.The day started off early for me because I slept extra good last night going to sleep right after supper.Around 3ish I guess thunder,lighting and heavy rain woke me up.By sun up it was gone but a cloudy day.A hot day also only 78 degrees now but humidity must be up.The big window next to my bed is open and it feels nice.Still not ready for the AC to be on.For the past few nights I have slept like a baby.No pain in my hip or knee.It’s not bad pain just enough to aggravate you when trying to sleep.Maybe those pain patches have finally started to work.What ever the reason I’m sure thankful for the good sleep.I played it lazy today which is not hard for me to do.I’m sorta an expert at that.
Sharp pointed brick to the head

The story of the sharp pointed brick to my head.As a kid I had made a tent out of an old blanket of Momma's.I was bad about swiping her sheets to make tents but this time it was an old patch quilt if my memory is right.I don't know how many times I was almost killed in our own backyard on Juniper Street.Caves where dug in the alley behind the house and it's a wonder a cave in didn't happen.Riding my bike in the the back yard I did not see the clothes line and it caught me at neck level knocking me off the bike along with my breath.Thought I was dieing.Another time I slid off a barn on my belly hitting the ground hard again knocking the breath out of me.On Murphy Avenue riding a friend's bike wearing a football helmet,don't ask why,the chain came off the bike at full speed,being 7 years old and not very bright I had time enough to think I had 2 choices,hit the car stopped in the road or go through a barb wire fence.I chose the car.The bike as destroyed and I landed on the trunk of the car against the rear window.People inside the car,high school kids where screaming he's dead,he's dead!No I'm not I manged to say.The football helmet saved my life most likely.I came through that ordeal with just a chipped front tooth.Now back to the sharp pointed brick to my head.I had made the tent and for some reason a brick was placed on top of one of the tent poles.Inside the tent on a Sunday morn before leaving for Church at Bethel, Alabama or as some folks know it as Graham, Alabama for 3rd Sunday in May,Decoration day,the brick,the sharp pointed brick fell and hit me in the head.Like the old saying I was bleeding like a stuck pig.No doctor was needed least I wasn't taken to the ER,just some old timey home doctoring.Momma reach into the fireplace and got some sut,black sut and doctored my bleeding head.Being a tow head with a flattop haircut,in my Sunday best off to Church we went,bleeding with black sut all over my head.So that is the story of the sharp pointed brick to my head.Now when I do foolish things I have a genuine excuse to blame it on.A sharp pointed brick to my head.
Friday, March 30, 2012
Before and after
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Aunts and Uncles
Hit in the head with a brick

Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Amazing sight in the sky

Monday, March 26, 2012
Good news!

Yea!Some good news,news that I like.Seems one of my favorite snack foods is really good for you. Good for you as fruits and vegetables.And that snack food is........POPCORN.Don't add the butter but shoot I can live without that.Also seems chocolate is good for you so bring on the Hershey bars.Now if I could just find a study that agrees with me that those fried to a perfection crispy delicious golden brown crinkle cut french fries are really good for you!
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Deleted
Friday, March 23, 2012
I had a vistor
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Angels sent from Heaven
Emails from the dead
Seems the emails where about things only they would know about.
Was it really emails from beyond or a cruel joke?
Who knows but it's something to think about.Death it seems is now gone high tech.Just a simple haunting wont do in the year 2012.
Wonder what the internet is like on the other side.Bet it's more dependable than some of us get that are alive and earth bound.
So they are passing out puters when we enter the Pearly Gates.
But in all fairness the article did go on to say that there is a service that you can use that will send emails after your death to your friends.Seems if the company doesn't hear from you in a certain length of time they will presume you have passed on and will send out emails that you wrote before your demise to those you choose.
Kinda gives that old AOL message you got mail a whole different meaning.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
A Southern thing

Hulu
Friday, March 16, 2012
Bucket list
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Watching nature

Yesterday was a good day.I spent a few hours outside in the warm sun.Sitting under the gazebo by one of the water fountains here it was a quiet time for reflection and deep thoughts.Not really no deep thoughts on my part.I just enjoyed the sunshine and the smells of early spring.Out of the corner of my eye I thought something was seen moving.It was a bluetailed lizard.I did a web search on them and they will bite and can be toxic to your pet and they can grow back their tails if cut or bitten off.They where darting in and out of the rocks on the water fountain.They look like little snakes with feet but for some reason I'm not afraid of them like snakes.They where sunning their self on the rocks and I thought to myself they had everything they needed.Rocks for shelter water to drink and flying insects for food.I kept noticing a little bird was hanging around on the rafters of the gazebo.A friend I thought then it came to me.Birdie was watching the lizards.Yes it was a good day.Spring,warm weather and nature to keep me company.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Walk in the light
Star gazing

Grass cutting season is here in west Georgia.The smell of fresh cut grass is one of my favorite things.It means warm weather is on it's way.I'm lucky I have a large picture window next to my bed.It's facing busy highway 29.I raise the blind up and there is a great view of the traffic,trees and the sky.At night I can see the stars.Star gazing has always been a fun thing for me.Camping out when I was a kid just laying out in the open watching the night sky.When I worked the afternoon shift at the water plant often on warm summer evenings I would spend most of my time outside just enjoying the sky that God had made for us.Often at home one of the things I enjoyed was laying out on the sundeck in a hammock at night watching the sky.I always told people I was watching for the Mother ship to come by and pick me up.Thinking back I hope they didn't take that comment to serious.It is a joke people.Anyway star gazing is free and you need no special tools just eyesight and maybe sometimes an imagination.
Monday, March 12, 2012
Two more
Oh my gosh!
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Lishe Martha Whitley Smith

Old man Joe

Think at the time they had no children.
Sitting in front is Joseph Smith and his wife Lonie,my Great Grandparents.
Joseph was called old man Joe I have heard and was obsessed with money.For the times I think it was said he was well off if not wealthy.He did give each of his children land for a farm.
Way story goes old man Joe had problems,what exactly I don't know.
He had made a statement while sitting at the supper table that one day he would be burnt like the piece of meat he was eating.Not long after he had said that it has been told he had a bad cold or flu and had rubbed some type of ointment all over his body and was last seen standing in front of the blazing fireplace wrapped in a blanket.The house caught fire.
My Grandpa John raced from the fields when he noticed the house burning.Jumping over something laying outside that he could not identify at the time to enter the house.As you might have guessed it was old man Joe.
Because of the statement he had made about being burnt like the meat he had been eating people thought maybe he had committed suicide.For years I have thought about this and what happened.There is no way to prove really what happened my opinion is that it was an accident.
Often I have thought if old man Joe wanted to end his life there are ways of doing it that would be more peaceful.
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
I should know better
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Siren blasting
Nice looking people if I may say
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Like a lamb
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Love
Love.Is it really possible.Only in fairy tales I was told.Nothing last for ever someone said.Maybe it does work for some.I wish words would come to me to help explain what I really feel on the subject.We all want and I think need that feeling of being loved.Someone we can trust.Someone who is there when you get so low your head bumps the ground.Someone who shares the good and the bad in life.Your right hand.Well I have been there a few times in my life.I guard my heart these days.For you that love works I congratulate you.
Friday, February 24, 2012
Spooky van
I have a friend who has a Dodge van.I think it’s at the least spooky.Every time I have been in that vehicle I get depressed.Bad vibes,karma call it what you want but something is not kosher with it.Once someone seen a black dark figure ,angry figure sitting next to me in the van.All I felt was depressed.I was thinking ,my friend bought the van used and maybe something bad happened in it.Often I have thought maybe it was used as a corners transport vehicle and had seen all sorts of gruesome things.What ever is going on something is just not right with that Dodge.
The wind howled
Friday, February 17, 2012
John the Baptist
My hair and beard are gray and long.I was told by a Lady here on the staff my new name from now on will be John the Baptist.Strange because the other day a preacher was visiting a roommate.We introduced ourselves but he miss understood me or me him cause all he was saying over and over was are you John the Baptist.No I said I’m just John.It bothered me some after he left it was that strange.That was on a Sunday.The following Friday I was Baptized.So if John the Baptist is my new nickname I will proudly take it.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
A new person
Back in Georgia.Back in LaGrange.It’s home.A lot of things have changed in the last couple of years for me.I just got Baptized.February 10 2012.Peaceful is how I can describe my attitude now.On a hot July night 2004 at 3am sitting at my computer I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior.Over the years maybe I have swayed from him at times and I lost that peaceful feeling.Now I have it back and want to keep it.The Baptism was done in a round about way.Not being able to walk anymore there was a problem.But people here at the nursing home found a way.So last Friday I was loaded onto a bus in my wheelchair.Several people I now call dear friends went with me .Off to the hospital we went.There they have a large whirlpool type bath that you can be lowered down into.So with the staff from Twin Fountains and a room full of joyous hospital staff I was lowered and immerse into the water and baptized by my preacher.I did shed tears from such an out pouring of love.While I was being dressed they where singing in the next room and giving praise unto the Lord.You a member of a large family now a Lady told me.I feel as I really am.I won’t mention everyone's names that brought all this together.For you I’m so thankful.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
New window new view
Hi everyone.This is an update on my life.I’m living at a nursing home now since January 12th.Guess what all is good with me.There is a lot to keep you busy here plus the staff is excellent and I’m making friends.The food is excellent.A super nice room here also.I’m so thankful for Twin Fountains Home.Feeling good and in good sprits.More later.With love John.
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Grits would be nice
Saturday and it’s raining.That is ok because I like the rain plus it’s not so cold today .I’m comfortable.Still got the electric heater running .It is a big help.I will just stay in bed.Another neat trick is taking the clamp on light that is on my bed and using it as a hand warmer.The 40 watt bulb doesn’t get all that hot but excellent for warming you quick.A nice hot steaming cup of coffee would hit the spot right now.What for breakfast that would be good that I’m not supposed to eat.Start out with 3 baked to perfection biscuits.6 strips of thick sliced bacon.2 eggs fried.Big bowl of grits with lots of butter,salt and pepper.Hash browns fried till they are golden.Big glass of ice cold OJ and more coffee.That should take care of it this morning.Really right now I would settle for the grits.
Simple man
Simple man.Like the song by Lynard Sknard.That’s what I like to think of myself as.Doesn’t take much to keep me happy.Reached a point in my life were I don’t care to impress folks.Take me as I am.Like me or not.I’m not easily impressed these days.What some are excited about I’m not.
Sleepless night
Can’t sleep.Might as well stay up till I can’t hold my eyes open.12:30 am.Saturday already.Don’t know what’s wrong with me tonight.Not sick or hurting but something is not right.Wish I had a big foam cup full of coffee.Lately I have been adding sweetener to my coffee.At times some cream.l always had my coffee black.I use to dislike McDonalds coffee cause it tasted burnt to me but now I think it’s a good cup of coffee.The heater is on in the bedroom.Bear the cat is laying in front of it.I keep getting rushes of sadness.Washing over me like the ocean waves.Might be something going on in my body.Maybe sugar is high but sticking me with those lancets hurts.Fingers do get sore.So not going to use the glucose meter.Bet that is what's going on because my mouth is dry as cotton and I’m so thirsty.I feel shaky also.Getting cooler to me.I’m not overly worried about anything.Concerned yes but worried no.I will put everything in Jesus’s hand and let him take care of it all.I do feel like a hypocrite at times.I don’t think at times I’m a very good person.No I haven’t murdered anyone or robbed a bank. It’s just I don’t act Christ like 100% of the time.That bothers me.Better being hot or cold the Bible said.Lukewarm he will spew you out.I think lukewarm describes me at times.Oh well.I know Jesus died for my sins and he rose from the dead.I was reading.At the last supper when it was over Jesus went out and fell to his face praying.He did not not want to die.But he had to for us and to wash away our sins.Often I picture Jesus in my mind and all he went through for people like me.At times I feel so unworthy of his love.I hear the sound of the train whistle.I like that so think I will try sleep and just listen to it and the humming of the heater.